(Source: thir13enn)
I MISS FRESHMAN YEAR SO MUCH! Love ya too :) And that is so trippy! But I knew it!
May 29, 2012 marks one year after my wreck. It is January and I have yet to see either of my cousins. It kills me inside every single day. I think about it constantly. I still don’t have the closure I have been in need of, ever since that day. I have always blamed the wreck on myself and it tears me apart. I know ya’ll probably think I am just rambling but I just really needed to write this out. 2011 was a tough year in general. I need a change. I need my family.
It really bothers me that my cousins are closer with each other than they are with me and my family. We get together every year twice a year but they always seem to see each other quite often. In a way it’s turned into a jealousy thing for me. I want the closeness that they have with each other. Because in the end family is all that you have. And I am constantly feeling as if I don’t have them at all. The littlest things get to me the most. I know I am probably over thinking everything but I don’t know how to fix this problem and I need a solution quick.